26 Nov 08 . Friendship B-O-N-D
Recently, I got this 'symptom' called Paranoid. Things are getting rocky with BeauBoi but I hope a lot it will stop. Right NOW, at this very moment, eventho' my feeling sucks, but I'm praying so hard to understand him. Cause, I don't want him to feel, "Do you trust me or not?" *sigh* If I can tolerate him for the past 1 year & 11 months, why couldn't I tolerate him now? WHATEVER with this feeling! Let the day come freaking fast so that, we can made the sort of, 'wake up call' for the next few years. *hint hint* 4 more days?! WAHHHH.That's NOT what I'm talking about! Anyway, isn't it great to have this feeling that whenever you're down, your blogmates will be there for you? I mean, you don't have anyone to talk to, SO, you pen down your feelings at your blog AND the next day you'll know, a lot of taggers saying 'be strong. I'll be there for you.' , 'Hey! If you need any listening ear, talk to me yeah.' , 'Omg! Hope you're fine okay.' etc etc. Just that simple note & your sad feeling started to fade a lil. REALLY! AND, I realise something, to compare the amount of taggers with a 'sad' post and a 'happy' post, I realise that, when you pen down a 'sad' post, you will have more taggers than what you've expected. Hahahaha.
Oh my.. Don't get me wrong & post 'sad' entry everyday okay!!
It's natural!! I mean, it's logic, lah. When you see OR feel that this person is having problems OR in the midst of breaking up OR having a sad moment, you will tend to coax the person for atleast, a tag by showing that we care for them. As for me, I don't know why, I couldn't bare to see my friends (in any connection) so sad. So, the point is, isn't it Tagging fun!! AND, another thing to ponder about, I love bloghopping. If you think right now I'm like a Makcik kPO who loves to read people's blog, THEN go Private! Isn't bloghopping was meant to read?? AND, I hate people passing news to others. Like for example, "Eh! Nana Sontoloyo dah update ar! Kau tengok ah dia pey post." Even that kind of people, I couldn't tolerate. I better not KNOW who's the person is. Itu baru kepo. I'm kind of a person like, 'what's here remains here. If you know about it, then Good. If you don't know, go read yourself '.
AGAIN, that's NOT what I wanted to post about!
What I wanna post is... , I just dyed the base colour of my hair. *lol. Kidding kidding! That's not about it!* Just wanna ask your opinion, is people's Jealousy towards you is normal? To me, it hurts. Firstly, it hurts to see people TEND to be jealous of me mixing around with people. It's like, "Am I NOT deserve to have friends?!" Secondly, when people started to jealous, my friends & I started to lie to them so that Jealousy won't emerged anywhere.
So, that's why, when people are jealous that I befriend with other people, I will IGNORE. I don't wanna hear anything about it cause in the end, I end up being guilty.
1) I'm guilty that the people whom we lied, will know & then, end up quarrelling.
2) I feel BAD when I'm lying.
3) I kesian to see the people kene tipu tipu atas bawah..
SEE?? BUT what else can I do to avoid Jealousy? There's no other way but to LIE. *sigh*
I just hope that this world will stop Jealousy control. Jealous about other people personality / beauty / etc is fine with me. BUT Jealous about having a new friend / befriend? *speechless*
ANYWAY, ANOTHER thing is, I'm thankful that Blogger makes my NET friends become more closer. Still remember freshly, Lyn with her LJ. *LOL. Mepek sey, with HER* I love reading her entries. Make sense. Then, look what we've now? Close friend over @ MSN. Once met at Paragon. Easy said, a friend that can truly trust & have a good sense of humour. Another example, Ermm.. Eza Doll. She's just my Blogger Friend, you know. No connection at all. Look what we've become? Once my tutor cums close friend too! Like, si Itik. LOL. MRS ITIK with the Love at the side. I'm so close with her at MSN. Every problems, we share with each other. Then like, Azian, Mrs Zulki, Moktelyamja, Ashie, NanaChica, Ella, Idah C, BabySassy ETC.. You think I got 'close' connection with them ha? We're just like any other Blogger Friends.
I don't know how I should thank Blogger. *laugh out loud* BUT, one thing for sure, I appreciate each & every of our friendship.
You know, I think it's not about 'labelling' a friend as just a BloggerFriend. It's about the bonding that closes each other up. I love making friends.
STOP hating. STOP jealousy. STOP enemy.
Make world P E A C E & H A R M O N Y.
That's why I choose Blogging instead of playing Friendster, Myspace etc. Though over THERE, they're making friends, but, come to think of it, it's just like ADDING friends to your friendlist. AND mostly, people will only add them ONLY IF you're their friend. Hmm.. Make sense now!