It's all about US.
Hello. It's 03:25AM now in the morning.Everyone was asleep except me. Just put down the phone with BeauBoi. Im starting to be more careful when talking to him. As in, ... OK. Let's just put this way. I don't wanna make a big fuss -again. I don't wanna quarrel with him anymore. Get what I mean? So what I mean by CAREFUL is that, I don't want to draggggg things out & becoming it worse. I'm getting sick & tired of it. Really.
Who couldn't resist. He's my one & only. He's my Everything and I swear, I love him to death. BUT some things needed to be change. He loves me & I love him. That's not about the whole thing. The thing to work out the 'love' is to Understand, Trust, Patience with/each other. I ain't talking about monkey love here. I also ain't talking about being attached for months. I'm talking about being inlove for years.
YES. I admit, I'm just a Seventeen year old girl who's inlove with a Twenty-one year old boy. BUT, I think maturedly. I'm ready to take all consequences with Him. I wanna go through ups & down with Him. That's when I found out that, I'm serious in this relationship.
The moment we know each other, we are not surprise at all that we actually were strangers chatting on MSN together (without even meeting each other) at that point of time. That's when I decided to change my Email Address to a NEW one & BeauBoi decided to disturb me about my Nick. By then, I'm lazy to chat any further so I pass my NEW email address to him. We chatted for a few months & decided to exchange numbers. Yes I know, at this point of time, you maybe thinking 'yar yar..typical cyber chat. first chat then exchange numbers & such' But it doesn't stopped there. When I was out with my Ex, BeauBoi called me a lottttt of times. And I mean, ALOT. It's like every 5 minutes trying to check out on you; what are you doing with him. is he kissing you. etc. It was a funny/strange/weird incident you see. Cause, I didn't realise that he was giving me a HINT HINT that he was 'actually' jealous. LOL. Eventhough we ain't chatting that much later on, we actually talked on the phone a lot. He called me. He sacrifised his OUTgoing call just FOR me. HOW sweet can he be? TELL ME? He even HAD to change to prepaid card cause his Bill is very High. & I mean, VERRYY High. 1 month = $500++! Could you imagine? All those Outgoing calls? Omgawd.
I still remember, we finally decided to meet up when BeauBoi's sister is getting married. I think 2 weeks before or so. He invited my family & the moment he met my Parents (for the first time), he met me for the First time too. And I also remember, we went to watch 'Jangan Pandang Belakang' @ Yishun on our VERY first date. Aww.
The bond were getting stronger & stronger. & up till now, I still couldn't remember when was the time he decided to commit relationship with me. To be frank, it comes naturally. Even BeauBoi asked himself when & how he can fall for me. The date, 1 Dec 06 came up which what I remember, December is when I met him and I got a butterfly in my stomach which he also met my parents for the first time. The 1 was just randomly pick btw.
So now then I realise, LOVES ACTUALLY COMES NATURALLY. If you were to ask someone, why do you love me? If he were to say, You're cute, pretty, honest .... etc. To my perception, DONT EVER BELIEVE IT. Cause he maybe taking advantage of you. BUT, if he were to say, I dont know. I just fell for you. Seriously. I don't know why. The tone of his voice & the way he speaks tells the truth. You can obviously can tell whether or not the way he say is true or not. Maybe you believe it, maybe you don't. Oh well, different people different perception. =)
My Dear BeauBoi. How can I not fall for you? Each time when I heard your voice, I'm speechless. I didn't shout/mad at you cause I know, you actually don't deserve it. I was the one who's actually follow my temper without noticing it. All those harsh msges is just the anger in me. & nothing else. Deep down here, YOU ARE TRUTHFULLY MY LOVE MY EVERYTHING. And I THANKED ALLAH for bringing this Precious Special Gift to me. Alhamdulillah, our parents were happy for us & most importantly, 'restu perhubungan kita' =) Amin.
I believe what we're going through now is a Test from Allah. And I accept in opened hands. We have more years to go through. Alot more patience, trust, understanding. Let's go through circumstances together, my Dearest.
I love you Mohd Hafiz B Suhairi.