BeauBoi, greatly missed.
It's been nearly a month now since I last met BeauBoi.Well, the thing is, we've both been busy with our everyday life. Me with going to & fro to Nenek's house while Him with his work.
Last time, we used to meet each other every week but things doesn't goes according to plan cause we're now in a tight budget. I mean, very tight. So now, we have to get back to square one whereby we only meet each other every month.
It's hard. Really hard. & I have to control my emotions. I used to cry @ night when I didn't met BeauBoi on that day. It's just so heartbreaking. But then, to think back, I know I have to be strong & be patience. & everything will be fine.
Fighting my emotions isn't as easy as you think. I have to make myself busy so that I didn't think much about it. The reason why, I'm willing to go to & fro to Nenek's house is these.
Taking care of Nenek is just like how I took care of my Arwah AtokBaby. It's the same thing repeating itself.
Nenek has been acting strangely for the past few days.
Just like my Arwah AtokBaby.
Nenek wants to walk & keep persuading us to make her stand.
Just like my Arwah AtokBaby.
Nenek loves to smell minyak kapak.
Just like my Arwah AtokBaby.
Nenek's legs easily cause pain.
Just like my Arwah AtokBaby.
See the similarity?
Sigh.
Baba, I just miss you a lot.
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Okay. Here's the thing. Remember I went to the doctor that time?
Here's the story.
Went to the doctor with mum. Atfirst I was scared lah. Then, when the doctor check he told us that, HE also don't know what was it FIRST. He doesn't want to make any CONFIRM cause there's no X-ray or something that can check my inner part. He wants me to refer to Breast Centre @ TTSH (Tan Tock Seng). The earliest appointment with the specialist is on the 06 of Dec 07.
So yeah. For now, I couldn't state any things yet. Just wait for the check-up on the 06 Dec than I can state anything here.
=)
Maybe it's a symptom that will get due to menses?
Maybe it's a genes(keturunan)?
Maybe it's a
Don't ask me. I also dont know.
I just need you baba. Nothing else matters.