So here's the story.
He passed away the last two days. Sis Angel msged me when I was at the Art Room doing my Art. Upon reading the msged, the first word coming out from my mouth was, Innalilahwailahirajiun. I was shivering & crying non-stop. Sarah & the rest asking me why. Told them to read the msg. Obviously, they were shocked as I just told them his condition when i went to visit him the other time. I asked Ms Nuraini for permission to leave the school early. As i was saying to her, I couldn't breathe well. My heartbeat pumped so fast.As I was walking heading the Bus stop, I passed Eedah the news via msg. & Obviously she was shocked too. Called mom telling her about it. Cums MCFly (Reza) msging me whether I got the news (Read: BAD news). I called Breep2 but couldn't get through. So, I called Suga (Itah). She called me back & I was crying badly. The first words she told me was, "Aku tahu". She consoled me telling me not to cry. Okay. I didn't cried that bad after that. Guess who called me after that? It's my-long-lost-girlfriend, Fitot. She called me! At first, I didn't recognized her voice & when she said her name, I couldn't believed it's Tina. & My heart sank again. I was like, "Fitottt. Mane kau pegi Fitot." While crying. Everyone at the bus stop couldn't stop looking at me. Couldn't care more.
The Alamaks msging each other cause some said that the Jenazah will brought back home while some said that it will be send to the Mortuary & will brought back home tomorrow. So I waited till evening. It was confirmed that the Jenazah will be send to the Mortuary. Tina called me again asking me whether I wanna tag her along to see him cause it will be send to Mortuary when the clock striked 5. I looked at the clock, it was 04:45PM. I know for sure we couldn't make it. (Plus the bathe, the choosing what to wear & abit of makeup) So I didn't tag along. Waited for the next day.
Next day, woked up in the morning at 06:45 sharp. (As told by BeauBoi. He was the one who waked me up.) Went out at 07:35 heading the MRT. Msged Najihah when I was at Bishan pitstop. She was still sleeping (Kesian sygku). Meeting Najihah at Outram Park itself. Actually, the plan was meeting her at 9AM. Guessed what? I reached Outram Park at 08:30AM. LOL! Complained at BeauBoi about it. He still had the chick to laugh at me & told me that he was only afraid that I was late. LOL! Tsk tsk. After 16 train had already passed, Najihah called me that she already reached Outram Park. Met her & Eedah last min told us that she wanna tag us along. Waited around 20 mins then Najihah suggested to just met her at Sengkang.
At sengkang, we met AdeQ. & went to the toilet. I'd menses cramp! That was so 'leceh' okay. Eventually, Pampy was there too. After meeting Eedah & Pampy at Sengkang control station, we headed to bus 965. The five of us alight upon seeing the carpark as was told. Searching for the blok wasn't that difficult. All the Alamaks (The old & new chatters) was under his blok lingering around. It was like the re-union for the Alamakhianats but with the wrong occasion. Around 50-70 came. Could you imagined? Obviously he's a friendly, jovial person & everyone was there giving the respect for him.
While waiting for the Jenazah to come, the Alamaks was told to gather around at this part of the area. After kC gave a talked about the Tahlil thingy at Darul Ma'wa, we prayed Al-fatihah for the Arwah's. Some of them did cried. Especially YaniZCine. *hugs* When the Jenazah came, the tears started again. We followed & went in his house. Most of the Alamaks was in the front row. Directly infront of where the corpse was placing. I was sitted beside Sayang17 & LilQis. The 'mandikan' took longer than normal procedure. We understand much cause maybe they scared that his skin will tear off. (Maybe?) Everyone stood up when the 'pengetua' opened up the batik, showing just the face. & to be frank, it was 'berseri-seri' bagaikan syurga. Like the same face at my 2nd last post. Yes, but this was abit fairer. Sayang17 was crying badly. BabyBoyBesar (BBB) told me to bring Sayang17 out. So LilQis & me brought Sayang17 out. The Alamaks in his house went out too. So that the rest could see him like for the last time? When we're outside his house, YaniZCine looked behind & hugged me. I tried my best to consoled her. Cinderella (Arwah's ex) too cried badly. Went down & waited for the Jenazah to come down. Everyone sat down reminscing.
When the Jenazah brought down, everyone gathered around the area where it placed. His dad thanked us for coming down & stuff. Eventually, I didn't went to the kubur. So, LilQis, Najihah, DriftKid, AnApek & me went straight to Darul Ma'wa. Being the kind soul, they accompany me to eat near Eunos MRT coffee shop. LOL! I ate one-quarter of the Prata only & the rest gave to LilQis.
Walked down to Darul Ma'wa & slacked around. Around 06:30PM, almost everyone was there. After maghrib, we 'bacakan Tahlil' for the Arwah. At that point of time, I feel protected by Allah. & insyallah Allah will ringankan dosa-dosa Arwah cause he often get involved with the Darul Ma'wa kids in any event. The good thing that is. :)
kC show us slideshow of his photo (memories) & opened this song. The lyrics was so touched. "Kau la sahabatku. Kau tinggalkan aku..." Something like that? Everyone cried including kC. kC tried his very best to say some words but couldn't help it but in silent for a minute. Then, we bacakan Al-fatihah for the Arwah.
After the prayer, some still crying, some went to eat while some sitting around talking with the rest. 30 mins later, Mom msged me that she'd already reached Darul Ma'wa. Eventually, I told my parent to pick me up. Then on the way to u-turn, BoyBREEP2 (Rian) called me asked me where am I. I knew he wanted to tompang. So I said, "My dad already off." Then Mom asked me who & Dad was like scolding at me, "Ajak la! Call dier balik sane. Abah hantar." So, I called BoyBREEP2 back while Dad parked the car at the side. Telling me that, Feer & Boi17 was with him too. Told them to tag along with us too. Alighting Feer & Boi17 at Yishun MRT while Rian at the busstop near his house. Then we went back home. :)
So that's the story. I don't ask you to read everything. It's just a day that will be remembered. It's just incase if I lost my memories or what, I can just looked back at my blog for the story.
Shahrunnizam Bin Rustam Pane.
25 Oct 1984 - 06 June 2007.
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.
Amin.
A close friend of mine in year 2005.
Lost contact with each other.
Last saw him was 2006 Darul Ma'wa Iftar.